Monday, February 1, 2010

Outside My Comfort Zone

I had lunch with a former high school teacher of mine... I was in his choirs over 20 years ago.

I was a girl then. My world was out of focus and I was unsure of where I fit and what I was doing.

I talked with Mr. Fett for two hours that day. I showed him some of my recycling projects. And he talked to me about the fact that I was trying to do everything myself. There is a demand for my products, so much so, I am not keeping up with my Etsy shop and I am just selling orders.

Mr. Fett's point to me was that maybe I didn't need to do this all by myself. I could hire people that needed work. I could recycle more items that then wouldn't end up in landfills. My takeaway was that I could be more if I wanted to. It was my choice.

The conversation threw me. I had to look deep inside somewhere that was uncomfortable.

But I did.

I thought about Mr. Fett's points. They are good ones. I want to contribute to this world. I want to make it a better place for people other than myself. What I feel inside is larger than me.

Fear was holding me back.

But I thought about exactly what is holding me back. What is truly scaring me. I like to plan and make certain everything is in order and it is going to work out and really how that is just an excuse not to move forward. I am afraid to move forward without knowing where I am stepping.

In spite of this fear and nonsense, I managed to push on my glass walls.

I am moving forward with expanding my business to include others that can use work. I have already started to design several lines that are my creation but can be replicated by others. I am trying to go forth organically and let this happen as it occurs. If it is meant to happen the way my mind works, it will happen the way my mind works.

If you think it, it will be. (If you build it, they will come.)

And I now understand why all those artists I watch on PBS have small armies of other artists helping carry out visions.

Getting out of my comfort zone is good. I am finding more creativity and more ideas just by letting go of what I THINK I SHOULD be doing.

Tell me what you do when you hit the walls of your comfort zone. Help me continue to push mine out further and further.

Thank you readers. And thanks for letting me know you are still out there!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

The Truth Comes Out

Did I lose my head?


Was I talking to the animals?


I've just had a lot on my mind.

Here's what has happened since September:

1. I moved to Ohio.
2. My husband stayed in California and will be there until the end of next month.
3. My husband and I found a business to buy.
4. We bought the business.
5. I have been working on that, some art, and a few other things.

It seems like I don't have time to reflect on what is going on... but I am going to try to get started back here again.

I want to get my shop filled back up as well. Slowly but surely, this will all happen. If you are still out there, I look forward to hearing from you.